Kneel With Me Series: Part 1

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Been so much going on, draining me emotionally and spiritually - core situations
Havent been the best judge of things
Given in to opinions of me by deciding to create opinions of my own
Actually voiced it in  a mail just so that they'd know, feel and feeeeel how much they crushed me
Brought up every sin in their life that I once overlooked
Made sure they knew how much I knew
somewhat trying to justify my right-ness in all of the mess
how much I cared
how much I loved
how much I invested
how much I, I, I.....

sick reasonings
sort of trying to make myself feel better about all the good i was doing
because it seemed like all they saw was bad
bc all i heard was bad
ignored the truth
decided lies werent gonna go if i didnt voice my supposed actual
when really
the actual, actual said, "Not that way beloved."
I was convinced He was wrong
After all, I heard it all in the face!

Because I looked away from His face

No it doesnt right their ways
but neither does it right mine

Trash upon trash upon trash Upon trash

Bitter upon hate upon anger upon hurt
tying its ways around mine
Presenting all the good feels at the time
sucking up my vibe
pretending to be right
boy did i love that fake spotlight!

Now im more torned up inside.....

Wished I'd just let go of this pride
Want to just burn all of these lies
Hate the emptiness deep down inside
Things Ive befriended over time

And then as if A Father searching for His lost child
I heard Him saying,

"Beloved I am the way, the truth and the life !

Come drink of the water that never runs dry!

Today you can be with me in Paradise!"

Nothing has ever felt safer in my life...



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