The Dilz Journey

  I don't know if I will write more about it but today this part of it is what I want to share here. Blessings!       “Here are the blueprints for the whole project as God gave me to understand it,” 1 Chronicles 28: 19 Just got done watching Heaven is for Real and thankful for the timing of it.   It’s quite amusing to me that I never got to watch it when it had come out until this week. Heaven is for real. A place like no other. I still feel the rush of it and pray it will never ever stop.   My heart was just heavy and straight after family devotion I rushed to the room, shut the door behind me and knelt and just let out a sudden (to my surprise) flow of unceasing tears like my heart was going to fall out! I just wanted it all out. Whatever it was. With life unfolding to new and different seasons, I cried for just a sense of peace and comfort to rest, to rest, to rest in my King as the seasons inevitably change.  ...

When God made man He handled the being so delicately He formed it so skilfully His most treasured possession! He gave his breath into the being to move, to live and have his being Holy. Sacred and Good is this being to God "Mine Mine Mine", He says. "Oh how you are mine!" Taking delight in you, so pure and true. Unlike any other creation One of a kind you! Gave you everything else in His creation to rule Everything in His creation, in all its splendour! He gave you. What does man do? Man leaves the creation aside Decides to overrule his own kind How much God cherishes a human being Loves him with all his heart And the human chooses to play his own card. Yet it doesn't change the way He looks at us Oh how we've strayed from the start Doesn't change the way He looks at us. With this truth I nullify every lie Telling me that playing around with a human being is right Devil so sly but you're going down dead and dusted again...

  Here we go.... Sometimes life takes a sudden turn Leaving you with choices to discern Been asking for something And you get it, even beyond Beyond all the dreams of man Beyond what you can comprehend Oh to have the words Words that fully express my soul Words I may not even know Words that filter the darkness that constantly tries to bring me down As I enter a world unknown. Sunshine, crazy heat, dry surroundings Mountainous too All a little too familiar Felt so close for a bit Yet still so far Far from the usual enchilada Makes me wonder What is this And God's like, This.is.Me. This may only for a little while But it is happening.. Taking on the bright sides of living and loving And making it even more real Because He is for real.   So as I go That I will make Him known And make Him known and make Him known. Amen.

[WARNING: These thoughts are completely my own battling through the odds and reality of life and trying to see it fit in to the wonderful adventure of having a relationship with God. No hard feelings.]  When days are hard And my mind battles through the scars The things that are close to my heart Trying to find its way back to the start The world around me seem so complacent and nonsense Here I am praying not to get poisoned. Is it wrong to care, I wonder? People just chilling like my Jesus didnt suffer Came to give His LIFE while we wandered The life that i s like no other! Yet we choose much less than His offer Pre-marital sex, selfish ambition and lustful pleasures Sorcery, jealousy and outbursts of anger To name a few of our acts of ignorance on things that matter. So, what am I supposed to do with all of these struggles?  Well we who belong to Christ are more than conquerors We might fall but we rise up taller Sinking...

I wrote this on January 24th  and today I feel like sharing it here.  Mothers may be a lot of things but being weak is not one of them. They endure through the toughest pains and struggles ever known to man and still manage to smile and love and move on.  Mine, she knows all my friends even though she hasnt met half of them. (and she may never will), listens to all my ramblings even if doesn't agree or even if its just plain boring and silently prays that I grow up and be better than before and no matter what will still be here when everyone else isn't. The perfect and closest illustration of Jesus and his beloved.  Cheers to all you awesome mothers!  Father,  My heart bursts forth in joy At all You've brought my way Thank you isn't enough to fully convey Your wondrous works my God keep blowing me away. Today my mom is a year older How blessed I am, I still ponder Her reverence for You, no one can fight her For her God comes first and there...

Photo Credit: Kingdom Ambassadors International Fellowship Aunty La, My heart sank a bit hearing your passing But in the split of a second i smiled I smile I smile I smile! Yes I smile, oh I smile! I smile because God is smiling I smile because I know heaven is still shining I smile because you've always smiled I've hardly seen you in a situation otherwise I smile because you knew who you were working for! and you never had its second thoughts I smile because your relationship with Him was SO evident so joyful, so full of life, so transparent I smile because I know beyond knowing that you have done your part I smile because I know you have made so much difference I smile because you've emptied all of you in every one of us Your dedication, your heart, your love has impacted every one. As tears stream down my face My heart is full recalling our last conversation You said, "Working for my king is my bread and butter, I have nothing to lo...

Sometimes Sometimes its just good to be still To be quiet, to be away. Because in these moments you realize all the things that tests your patience sometimes, all the things that contradicts your values and the things  you are striving for sometimes, all the little things that aim to  open doors to frustration, confusion and anxiety... In these moments, all of these become MEANINGLESS. POINTLESS. POWERLESS. And everything that God is, unravels before you and keeps you in selah moments every second minute. Alas, worship at its finest..... Life at its best for me. Far beyond all the questions I may have All the ponderings of my heart All the unmet "needs" All the different situations that presents itself before me The LIFE undo's me And I am made whole Again and again. and again. and again. Instantly my spirit rises And before my King I present a song and dance Only He understands The world may never comprehend How much this love really has...

Waiting seems like a hard process Especially when the world always seems to be in a contest Yet they that wait shall have renewed strength Victorious before reaching the other end Patience is the beauty produced Glory in believing with no excuse This. the joy of the righteous man God holding him by his right hand The journey is as beautiful as the end The re-uniting of the King and His heirs The joy one cannot comprehend Celebrating the goodness that forever stands ! 

There is only one thing. He sent them out to preach about the Kingdom and heal the sick He talked of rejection, humiliation and pride He challenged the laws, the leaders, their strife He taught them to pray He warned them of being easily swayed But there is only one thing He says Really there is only one thing He says it all comes down to Seeking His Kingdom, doing His Father's will which will always stand true Nothing more. Nothing less.  You want to come with your philosophies and theories Your experience of what He did for you in the past And what you think you know of Him No, no, no my friend You come to God as you are. No thinking, no status, no religion, no. Nothing See He doesn't want your ideas about this life as if He needed it He is LIFE Himself He. Just. Wants. You. Period.   I do not speak (write) because I fully understand I speak because the bit of the puzzle I do understand, causes me to realize how small I am,...