One of those days

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Today was one where I actually took time out to look back through my journal. Haven't been doing it much for a while now which is almost saddening. I like to make it a habit to read through previous journal entries esp when life becomes a bit weary and I am slacking off if I haven't already dove in to ignorance.  Its a healthy habit bc I get to be reminded over again of His goodness esp in days where I don't feel it. And Honestly I dislike admitting that such days exist but they do! Oh my gosh they do!
So I came across an entry that I felt like sharing here, because the reality is, there ARE days where holding on is the most insane idea because giving up or giving in, is so much easier. Thankfully and normally at the end of our end,(or so we think) is the light - perspective.
This entry was one of those days...
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LOST!
Didn't know what I was singing today
Seemed like I was
Trying to connect
Don't know if it was the team or God himself
Searching for that right moment
It started last night
I lost it to befriend enemy lines
more than I wanted to keep covenant ties
Cried.
CRIED
Because I sold my  birthright
Gave it away
For a pittance, or even nothing!
To be included?!!
Why??!!
I was craving for deep ties
So I thought maybe....
But I thought wrong.
What I long for is nothing human
Nothing of this world
Completely supernatural
Completely out of this world
Crazy how quickly one can snap out of it
Crazier how quickly you can snap back in to it  too!
Here's to snapping back in
and staying there.

selah
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