Year End Reflections

Hi there. Less than 5 days away till 2025 and I want to share my reflections. These were questions prompted for Salt Team and thought it be great to share here. 

🌼 What's your biggest reflection from 2024? 

Going through heartbreak this year, I discovered a new strength I didn't think I had. 10 years ago me would wish I never go through something like this because I didnt think I'd survive it ... i guess because of all the shame and embarrassment attached to it. But here I am. Surviving. A whole miracle! It really made me think, man, I can survive/ do anything!  

🌼 What am I taking with me in to 2025?   Strength in solitude. 🙏🏽 

I really NEEDED to pull back from everything I was used to in terms of comfortable community and just sit in my discomfort and hear from God. Like an El-Bethel moment I set up camp at home in a room like I was in lock down just so I can receive what I was meant to receive from God coming out of that heartbreak. That looked like tears as i journal and then sitting up and reading through old Quiet Time journals and then crying again, then come out to eat and be present with family, then back in the room again and only being able to sleep with the Audio Bible on. I just wanted to soak in the Word and squeeze out all the nasty stuff that I have picked up along the way. 

I'm still navigating through the emotional stuff but gosh there's so much strength and liberty in owning the pain and journey and doing life the way I feel works for me right now. 

After all these years I found my journals from 10 years ago, one in particular that I was convinced I had lost in my nomad seasons. I still can't fathom how much the things I wrote 10 years ago came back to save me in my heartbreak this year. 

Alot of it were kind reminders that I'm living in the seasons I once prayed for. ✨️ 

Huge lesson for me as I navigate this season is taking life slow. As slow as it comes because the emotions come in waves. I don't want to just rush in to checking boxes, and meeting people and ignore my emotions but rather maneuver my way in ticking boxes while not ignoring the emotions. Taking rest days if I need to and not overdoing everything like the eldest child in me tends to do. 

🌼 If you were given a chance to do this year all over again and change certain things, would you want a do over? 

Honestly no. I wouldn't change a thing. Loved everything for all it taught me and brought or is bringing out of me. 

🌼 Wins? 

• I have a renewed appreciation for my brothers for stepping up and showering me with grace and abundance in this season that I've never had before in my life. 

• I have loved getting to be around my Nau alot as she's deteriorating physically. Watching her still having the grit to be alive after surviving far worse than my circumstances gives me strength to be the same. 

• No more running. While being in community has been my life these past decade of my life, I know I have abused the privilege of being in community to run away from home and all its drama. Being heartbroken this year and see my family carry me through has been such a sweet spot for me this year. 

🌼 It's crazy for me to think that I am walking out of 2024 in gratefulness when everything I felt like I was dealt with this year should have made me bitter. 😔

🌼 Secret? No secret. Jesus is the answer. His Word is my life line through and through. 

Here's to 2025 and living and learning and growing yet again. ✨️ 

Lolomas from Drekeniwai village ♥️ 

From my grandniece and I ☺️