NO There is no Limit - This Person of Grace

WARNING: HIGHLY SENSITIVE 

 

Wrote this entry all the way back in March and came across it tonight. Thought I'd finally share it here. I have just been intrigued by the person of Grace in mesmerizing ways for the past few weeks and feel this entry sweetly shoots the bullseye, stingily I must add for me. And no I have not mastered the matter but am constantly humbled that He constantly comes through.  I am NOTHING. HE IS EVERYTHING ONE COULD EVER NEED or at least dream to have - HE IS LOVE.

 

March 20th,  2015.

A few months ago  this prominent man of God I know said something in one of his sermons that made me question a lot of things about God's love. I guess I've always had these questions as I look at life in general but I had just never voiced it.  I realize  that I have never voiced it because I knew what the answer is.  I always have known.  Somehow the way that story was told that day cut me sooo deeply and made me want to hide in the closet the rest of my life or at least the rest of that night. Crushed I came home and cried that he had no right to have said anything like that because he had no idea what our lives have been like.  It was hard to accept the fact that he could say something so mean that opened a wound in me. 

 

I needed time and space to think/ heal before I could attend church again.  I didn't want to go and give them a smile while my heart was ripped open. Dramatic? Maybe. But This is me and I am choosing time With God to process and deal with my heart before going on public mode again. 

 

Three months later I was able to attend church again (after that soft undeniable nudge of course!)

 

It wasn't super exciting but it was a start. I was accepted, embraced and loved and I was able to reciprocate that! (for a brief moment.ha) Within that 3 months of being away (with God) I was asking the question: Is there a line/ limit where love ends and hate (or pride) takes over? 
It took yet another month till I heard/ received the answer to that question.

 

 

News broke out in the ministry that this prominent man of God fell into sin.  My word. The whole world (around me) was shocked. Me included.  People walked out; mocked; threw the towel in et cetera et cetera. There were sooo many opinions, soo many comments, sooo many assumptions passed around, sooo many threats that seemed right and fitting at the time too, considering the situation. sighs. Tough life ay.

Because ministry must go on, I had to decide for myself what to do. I had to decide what I really wanted to do deep down.....  I just really yearned for His opinion.  Everyone else had their opinions and assumptions and fears (even me!) BUT I just wanted to hear His. 

 

 

That was when I heard the answer to the question I struggled to hear during 3 months away. It was NO. and it will always be No, There is no limit to love. There are no conditions. Period. 

 

 

A line from a book I am currently reading quotes from Ephesians 5:2, The Message translation says, "Observe how Christ loved us.  His love is not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of Himself to us.  Love like that."

Know that you are loved extravagantly not cautiously, not partly, not unless. For the work of the Lord is divine and is not hindered by our shortcomings or our shame or hurt. God works and loves anyway. Be a part of that. Be a part of this.  You are loved. You are to die for. In your mess, you are worth His love. 

 

 

I stayed on this ministry not so I can rub it in his face that I am a better believer, nor because not a lot of people would, but simply because his answer is no.  No there is limit to love and gosh I am soooo humbled and glad. AMEN