Today 💐

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Today I am thankful. Thankful that I am alive to be thankful. Thankful that I am able to be thankful with every ounce of my being. No I didn't achieve something awesome or experience something amazing to base my heart of gratitude from today. In fact, I have an assignment that I need to work on, I have pending dreams and god from like forever, and I have a family that I long to be with peacefully and quietly but I can't or I don't have all of these yet.  But I am grateful.  Grateful because I dont want to ever be too busy nor too quick to forget how much I've been provided for right now. I don't want to take now for granted. I dont want to get so used to the now, that I neglect to say Thank You. This is all a part of the journey and I did not just come in to the now over night.  I mean, there has been seasons and seasons of crying, of being disappointed over the circumstances, of not having a clue of what to do next or if there will ever be another season than right now! I've had nothing. I've had no one.  But I am alive. And not where nor how I used to be and some days I cant believe it.  Some dayscI wish I wasnt too busy or too tired. I cant help but deeply miss those times as I know I'll miss this season, because I know its been real; it has been a beautiful  - messy -necessary part of my journey.  It really just gets me all teary time and time again, not because it was awful, but because He was/ is faithful.


Live in your season! You won't regret it. Cry it out. Talk it over. Write it down, again and again. And again and again. It may seem like you're not getting anywhere or anything right now; a bottomless pit; no sign of light at the end of the tunnel, BUT there is hope beloved. And this hope has a name! His name is Jesus. Dont lose sight of Him. Hold on to Him with every fiber of your being! Even if every other part of you sees no sense in it, Hold On. Pain Ends. He will come through for you. You will gwt that job. You will ace that test. You will see your dreams come to pass. You ae healing in Jesus name! You will see and you will know, that He is God and He is not man to lie. It is only a matter of time. Hold On. 


As for me, honestly, if it all comes to pass, I will praise His Name. 
And even if it does not......... I  will still praise the Lord!!! 

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