Currently...

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*Currently*
Watching Shekhinah play and shriek with laughter and can't help but say, 
Oh Tu! It feels like you're still here! Feels like you're just sitting in front of your desktop in the room or sitting outside on your wooden chair reading your Bible or praying silently and quietly listening and watching Shekhinah play. 

Its moments like these that I cant believe you're gone - not so much seeing you teach or preach or share but you just being a father.


These past three years have been the craziest not to mention riskiest thing ive ever done in my entire life! Your passing made me appreciate ever coming here more than I ever have. I left every bit of comfort and familiarity to be a part of this as the Lord showed me, and he made this little act of obedience worth my while. Complete strangers. Completely different environment than what I'm used to and what I'd rather prefer.

Frankly, there were days where I wanted to run away; days where it was hard to go on; days where purpose seemed absurd and opposition seemed bigger than my God. Hard days. 
Beginning of this year I told God, I cant believe I survived. I dont have any reason to stay other than God, but I. Am. So. Thankful. I stayed. God is so good to me for telling me to stay till that wee hours of the morning when they carried you in to the car one last time but sitting lifeless at the back seat this time.


Thank you for taking me in. Thank you for taking us all in. Thank you for saying, "Its okay boy. Thats life. Just keep going" when I messed up.  
Never. Never have I seen someone so real and so bold about the kingdom, flaws, and faith as much as I never like to admit it even when everyone left you. Thank you for daringly believing and dreaming big things. I cant wait to see it unfold!


I hated your passing because no one can father Shekhinah well like her own. I hated that she wont get to see you father her anymore like how you fathered us. I guess she is more blessed because she then gets to experience Abba Himself like how you showed us. 
Oh we sure do miss you! I know these children will make you so so proud.

Moce mada Tu!






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