The Dilz Journey

 🌟  34 years of family today. 🌟  Not always an annual post, but always in my heart. Everything that we are today we owe to them. I miss my father on days like today.  A year ago today there was an event at Nakorosule, Naitasiri, my mothers village. I was so bummed that I couldn't attend because of prior commitments. I know the chief guest said yes to that event because of us. (definitely got scolded by him for not attending too.) And then I watched the Clip. 💔  All I know is he could have been playing golf somewhere but showed up to that event honoring our late father in a way and the land and people where my mum hails from. All you will see is the PM officiating another event. But to me it was much deeper than that. A kind act of service of reminder to our hearts that my father's legacy lives on and that marrying in to that village all those years ago was not in vain nor forgotten. 💕  Thankful to be reminded that showing up is how we honor them who hav...

It is the 1st of December and I am taking time to reflect on the year it has been so far.  Grateful to be alive to process freely and peacefully.  I think my highlight from this year was the coming together of the FMF Legacy Leadership Symposium in March. I loved getting to work with faith- based leaders from different spheres of influence who came together to help bring this event to life. It was such a true testament of being Salt and Light in the world. I've done other events but I think this one was a big deal because of how it was intentional and prayerfully considered and then extending the invite to the 7 pillars of society - education, religion, family, business, government, arts, and media with the privilege of having global renowned speakers.  Such a game changer initiative and everyone felt there needed to be one every year because it is so needed across the board.  Something I appreciate about doing John Maxwell Masterminds is how simple and relevant th...

25th November 1860 was the date on record our great great grandfather Aisea Vakadranu got baptized to be a Christian. 164 years ago.  Upon this discovery the vuvale Nadokadrau likes to get together to honor what that decision has been for us over the generations.  A little bit emotional realizing the significance that one decision has been over the generations.  Sure there has been bad decisions along the way, and our grandfathers could have easily chosen not to introduce us to the faith but here we are 5th, 6th and 7th generations later still gathering to pray and praise.  Alot of it is also credited to the women who married in to the family, our mothers who helped nurture us and keep us in this faith reality. A combination of grit and grace to press through challenges and the simple truth of the power of our living God.  Today we have become many branches and many in numbers since that baptism and I recall a verse that was personally shared to me back in 200...

Life is like a song, with a beginning and an end and a melody that pulls on all the heart strings.  It is only a little past 11am as I write this and I am exhausted!  I may have mentioned a number of times over the years, living with our grandmother. It has been 3 months since her recent mild stroke and she has been needing extra assistance daily. She's recovered 97% of mobility but still needs 24/7 supervision. My mum is currently down with a cold so I have to be the temporary primary care giver.   It's hard to accept that this is the new reality with her and all the good memories we once shared are just that now, memories. She's still here with us but for the most part she isn't. That brain disorder that creeps up on the elderly and affects everything we do around them can be such a physical and an emotionally draining exercise. It is not for the faint of heart. Half the time we're fighting them to remember basic things but they're just not there anymore and ...

I read a book a year ago that I still refer to constantly today - Soul Care by Rob Reimer  It answered alot of my questions for all of the trauma I was experiencing in my 20s. And now this trauma.  The book highlights alot on unhealed trauma if not dealt with in one generation can show up in a different generation.  Soul Care uncovers that Jesus may have been introduced in to our lives but it was without confronting the wounds that are still there. To be fair Some of these wounds can be from a different generation altogether and we would have no idea about. But the symptoms or signs that there is unhealed trauma keep showing up. Some of these signs are repeated patterns of sin - sexual abuse in the family, domestic violence, witchcraft or homosexuality are just some common examples of unhealed trauma in the bloodline.  The world today praises fully functioning people as if keeping ourselves busy or occupied to the point of burning out is the way to go in life. Over t...

It's a real battle to stay alive when everything around you screams the opposite of what you're feeling,  When everyone around you is moving on with life,  When you are expected to be strong and carry on  When no one can fathom the depth of broken hearts and shattered dreams  When everyone wants to have a say without considering our hearts of clay  Words wound our hearts and souls in ways we cannot explain  Hearts torn apart by decisions made outside of us  Our nervous systems have a way of shutting out unfathomable pain until we are ready to sit with ourselves face to face  Embracing the pain that keeps us enslaved  This is my way of releasing myself from the bound of this pain...  Keep me in your prayers please I pray  Pray that I remember who to live for  Pray that I encounter what to live for  Enough to keep me alive  Because some days all I remember is the pain  Keep me in your prayers please I pray Pray tha...