SUCH TIMES

Something I received this week made me go drag out my old journals. Ive been stuck on the 2014 one because I found some gems that made me laugh out loud and the ones where I said, wow God .  Here I am saying how I'm "thoroughly enjoying WFH" because I got used to home clothes and messy hair for yeeeaaaars that I thought that was my portion forever. That all God meant for me was to save the world from home. Which isn't bad. But I forgot that girl that once dreamt things. 🥺 Cos like in this day and age, testimonies like my fathers where only reaching Form 4 and making something of himself was only of the older generations tales. But.  He. Did. It. Again. with my unfinished degree and lack of "experience" in the secular world, He did it. Again. I messaged my sis that gifted me that journal, "Thank you for this timeless gift. 🥺I got to record what God had for me all along even though I buried the dream along the way."  One of my first weeks in the...

  Jesus!  😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭  What a Commissioning this conversation is.  A holy/ fire discussion of staying the course/path in remembrance of those that fought for what you/we enjoy today.  I always like to remind myself when I see good things unfolding, "Somebody prayed for that/this."  I dont always know who, I just know it's true. It helps me be a little bit more appreciative of the life we live. We are merely passing through.  And this conversation.  I expected nothing less. I cant believe how we're always so blown away a thousand times every 5minutes of what comes out of Bishop's mouth in a normal conversation. I cried through it as well because who wouldn't! Not because its unbelievable but because it's TRUTH and real.  Truth has this way of softening our hearts, shredding me of what's not meant of me till I'm only left with Him, the only thing that matters - Jesus, the life and life in abundance; our portion.  Only Bishop TD ...

It was a Sunday evening 2017. He came and shared with me some things that were on his heart about the nation, the family and Ebenezer.  A little bit of context (1 Samuel 7): the Philistines had arrived to attack Israel. The Lord spoke with thunder and the Philistines were thrown into confusion. The Israelites were able to defeat the Philistines all along the way between two towns. Samuel took a large stone and placed it between the two towns and named it Ebenezer meaning "stone of help" for he said, "Thus far the Lord has helped us."  I didnt know what the future held but I held on to that word, from my father with all of me. Years later today, it wasnt all roses and butterflies along the way but I'm still seeing this help come through over and over and over again and trusting that it will continue to do so till we meet him again.  Some QT points for those who care:  📌 We may feel like we're stuck between one town (step) and the next.  Key: The Lord came...

I've been spending the nights with Nau (my grandmother). Its been comforting and kind of God.  She's partially deaf so communicating has been different that we have to be loud enough for her to hear us. So sometimes she cant hear us being around and she gets a shock when she sees us suddenly like  we've been there with her for a while. One "Sa!" usually comes flying at us quickly followed with laughter and then all is well in the land!  It got me thinking of how important the sense of hearing is that it affects where we look or how we press on to the next thing.  Nau doesn't look our direction when she's  busy because she cant hear us being there with her and its enlightened me with some truths:  📌Sometimes we're not looking because we're not listening.  📌Sometimes we dont have direction because we're not listening. 📌Sometimes we get a shock when our paths take a sudden turn because we're not listening. 🥺  I've had to learn some of ...

 “ The deepest things that I have learned in my own life have come from the deepest suffering. And out of the deepest waters and the hottest fires have come the deepest things that I know about God...And it has been out of that very measure of pain that has come the unshakable conviction that God is love." - Elisabeth Elliot; Suffering Is Never For Nothing   I received those words from my sis Fehi, the day before my father's passing.  That same week while I worshipped at home, I been "seeing" angels come to my father's hospital bed and looked like they were dancing around his bed.  In that moment I wanted it to be them (angels) coming over to heal him so he could come home. He got both though - he got healed and went home, just not in the sense I wanted him to. All the pain I've had to endure before that, could not come close to that - what was the longest and heaviest nights of our lives.   I look back over it all now as fond memories of closeness to...

You wont even understand how I cant believe I made it to 29.  Did a 3 day fast prior just to soak in the last days of 28 and man. I was a mess thinking about all of the times I had wanted out of this life.  In the past 10 years, all of the pain I have had to endure had made me want to end this life immaturely.  Felt like all I was here for on earth was pain.  But God.  It was in my dark days that I discovered and rediscovered God and myself. I had to lose everything (break free from all) that was my default to solely be dependant on God.  I lost myself and gained God. and friends.  I didnt even expect a celebration. But these people were there always going all out. 💛 I'm not at all there yet, but I am farther along than where I was 10 years ago. My faith 10years ago lacked depth, factual meaning and alot of understandin.10 years later? I'm Leaning and living More towards healing, more towards life and life in abundance. More with conviction. Mo...