Feb 6th 💛

 “The deepest things that I have learned in my own life have come from the deepest suffering. And out of the deepest waters and the hottest fires have come the deepest things that I know about God...And it has been out of that very measure of pain that has come the unshakable conviction that God is love." - Elisabeth Elliot; Suffering Is Never For Nothing 

I received those words from my sis Fehi, the day before my father's passing. 

That same week while I worshipped at home, I been "seeing" angels come to my father's hospital bed and looked like they were dancing around his bed. 

In that moment I wanted it to be them (angels) coming over to heal him so he could come home.
He got both though - he got healed and went home, just not in the sense I wanted him to.
All the pain I've had to endure before that, could not come close to that - what was the longest and heaviest nights of our lives.  

I look back over it all now as fond memories of closeness to God. That while I felt this terrifying emotion of being torn apart from my earthly father, the Heavenly Father was quietly yet boldly right there with me(us). through it all.

Of all of the pain I've had to endure I can attest to Elisabeth's words in confidence, that truly, suffering is never for nothing..... because God is love. It just all works out in the end.

One of my most cherished moments of him was a few years ago, I felt like I was in a deep pit, a dark season. He had a dream about me and called me up and asked,
"iko tagi tiko?... Nanuma tikoga, nomu Kalou e levu cake." (Have you been crying? Just remember, above all, your God is still greater.)

Happy 2 years in Heaven Tata. How lucky you are, revelling in the Presence of The One. 💛