Twenty Nine 🎈

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You wont even understand how I cant believe I made it to 29. 


Did a 3 day fast prior just to soak in the last days of 28 and man. I was a mess thinking about all of the times I had wanted out of this life. 

In the past 10 years, all of the pain I have had to endure had made me want to end this life immaturely. 

Felt like all I was here for on earth was pain. 

But God. 

It was in my dark days that I discovered and rediscovered God and myself. I had to lose everything (break free from all) that was my default to solely be dependant on God. 

I lost myself and gained God. and friends. 


I didnt even expect a celebration. But these people were there always going all out. 💛

I'm not at all there yet, but I am farther along than where I was 10 years ago. My faith 10years ago lacked depth, factual meaning and alot of understandin.10 years later? I'm Leaning and living More towards healing, more towards life and life in abundance. More with conviction. More towards the kingdom.  



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