"ALL DAYS ARE GOD'S DAYS" - Nau

It’s been a little over a month since Nau transitioned in to glory after 85 good years of living earth side.

I have been trying to gather myself together to write an entry and share on here. She filled a large part of my heart, second to my parents. Alot of my life’s significant moments are marked with memories with her. I miss her constant presence in my life for sure. Coming back home this past year and getting to be with her is something I will treasure forever. On top of grieving the relationship I was in and all I had hoped it would be, I came home to grieving my deteriorating Nau. It was so painful to watch her not being her usual self and so the grief has been gradual over the course of a year. To simply say this past year was HARD to live with her condition and trying to keep things somewhat "normal" above all, is such an understatement. 

I’ll be honest here, I reached a point where I told God, I can’t bear to see her live this way for another 5 years. It is not fair on the Nau that I once knew and hard on us especially my mother who was the primary care giver.  Caregiving is not for the faint of heart!

May 3rd, 2025

Nau transitioned peacefully in to glory, no pain, no struggle. I went to check on her after dinner on the 1st of October and really thought she was just sleeping. I stood there for the longest 2 minutes of my life waiting to see her breathing movement. And there was none. In denial and because I’ve done this numerous times before, I called my mum to come and see her. And just like that, she really was gone. Peacefully. An answered prayer. And one that made me sob like the little girl she always cared for. 

As an adult now looking around us and how we her descendants have turned out, I see a piece of her in everything that we are! Her teachings, her appropriateness - wanting everything to be done well and PROPERLY, her stubbornness, her perseverance, her care, her faith, her dreams and advice for all who came under her care. 

I read through her 2024 diary, and on every page of every day she wrote at the top: ALL DAYS ARE GOD’S DAYS. And then she wrote about how her day went. Oh to have the faith in believing, that no matter what happens in your day, it is still God’s day. The good, the hard and the ugly.

Children - 2 out of remaining 4
Grands - 11 out of 14 
Great grands - 3/3  

We knew this day was coming, but when it actually did, we stood there, tears streaming down our faces and thought really?! She said she’d live till 90 and because she’s stubborn we were almost convinced she was going to have her way. 

Oh the moments and loads of memories that we will carry with us forever. The laughs, the lessons, the voice of correction when everyone else prefers to sweep things under the carpet. The voice of truth and reason and authority in the midst of chaos or uncertainty.

The tears still flow not just because we’ve said goodbye but in because we get to move on in this life without her – and who for the most of us has been 30+ years of our lives.

What an impact. What a legacy. Marama e levu nona veiwekani, dau veivakaturagataki. I'll miss our banter the most. I'm grateful for how everything panned out. A fitting homegoing celebration, honoring a life so well lived. Faithful God to a faithful servant. 

And now as we carry on the legacy of you Nau, our memory bank bursts with gladness of the life we shared with you. Memories we will cherish for the rest of our lives.   

Rest with aaaaaaall our love noqu Nau. Until we meet in the arms of our Savior. Indeed all days ARE God's days. 

[Christmas 2023]
 I miss you forever.