Lockdown Entries

Let me just write out my prayer for all these. "Father. May hearts be stirred for You. May hearts be shaken to move FOR You. May lives be enriched, encouraged, uplifted, rekindled to live for You. and it doesnt have to be huge or known and seen by the world - just be seen and known by You. That these pennings will go forth and serve and comfort and generate peace wherever it is received. For Your Names sake. Amen." 

Please note, I am totally talking to myself (lol) or an invisible audience or my journal or God in all these. I like recording or taking notes of ALL that is happening or all that speaks to my heart/interests accordingly.  Here's a few... 

March 31st, 2020: 

Truth bomb:

"We were already in crises with the vitriol,...loss of empathy for each other, ..ignoring genderism, racism, and a general mood of disrespect and narcissism. We were already in a crises globally!" 

 -Bishop TD Jakes on Instagram 

April 5th, 2020:  

Okay this just occured to me now. Dang. But you know how I mentioned that i been having dreams since Jan 1st? - tsunami dreams to be specific that woke me up terrified and in tears in the middle of the nights. 

So the first dream had L**** in it. We were travelling somewhere when it was going to hit and we had to run for higher grounds. End of dream. 

Second dream had L***, my sister, my uncle. We were all at a youth camp or smthn and my uncle was probably going to be speaker idk. But he was there. Anyhu the tsunami hit. Next scene i was at a beach and there were bodies everywhere!  I was a mess from the sight of it all! (hence woke up crying) I somehow found a phone! that was working after a tsunami! what even! and in all the world I only have one number that i know by heart apart from mine - LANI's number. And that's who .i.called. there was no exchange of words in that phone call, only tears because of the severity of what just took place.

It just hit me after telling my mum about how funny it is that shes the voice of COVID19 helpline and I was like, wait a minute! what in the world!  The dream! 

I remember telling S*** about it when I had the dreams,  and she mentioned smthn like, tsunami meaning a revival and also maybe God is trying to highlight smthn about the specific people in the dreams. 

As soon as Fiji was awaiting the announcement of the first COVID19 case, it hit me! 

I msgd S*** and said, "the tsunami is here" 

And so now just thinking about it all, Im realizing, L**** in the first dream,  representing the first responders. Everyday she's msging me how she is deep down knowing full well she was definitely going to be assigned to COVID19 patients. whichh has now happened.

And L*** to me in the dream representing purpose in the crisis. And in this case representing LOLOMA page. 

My sister representing family. 

My uncle representing the nation.

and L*** well. L*** is the helpline. Like of all people in Vodafone. Praise the Lord.

Idk what to make of all this rn but this is heavy. Im crying everyday when i worship and its the ugly tears not the fake grandma ones. Its reaaaalll and idk.... idk. God Idk if this is fair to say but, people are going to die. And idk how to make the heartache/burden go away.

April 7th, 2020 

I think the msg of the hour is obedience. In a time where there are a lot of restrictions some may be quick to settle and be complacent. while it is crucial to submit to authority in these interesting times, it is also important to remember the Lord and in that I mean, making time to hear from Him - what is HE doing in all this; what is His heart for you in this space and time we have been decreed; what does He want us to see that we have never seen before; what is His idea?; what does He want to be made known through this virus, through these new laws, through this curfews, through the first responders, through those who have suffered severely; through the brokenness of humanity, what does/is He offering us? 

I believe its the beauty or gift of Himself of course above all! And that through Him, kindness, goodness, mercy and empathy flow through. 

This world has focused so much on achieving that its lost respect and honour for one another. People just out here making fun of a human being created by the same God we profess. We have pages like Chat Fiji and Fijis Exposed Forum or the shaderoom just to highlight flaws and degrade a human soul like its no big deal. Hey people do it in our litte chats or conversations because its popular thing to do or just a feel good thing. I know, cos - Guilty! 🙋‍♀️

All Im saying is, in a time where we can get caught up in whats trending, may we even more remember to be caught up in His thoughts and inspiration. Download stuff that feeds your soul not destruct it. Share things that make us and others better not what tears them down. Be humurous but be vigilant. Be watchful. Be kind. Be merciful. Be the way the world should be not the other way around. Act on that nudge. Share your story. Write that song. Check up on that loved one/stranger. LOVE. because above all of these things is love

I just feel that God will be putting things or people on your hearts to reach out to or pray for or to do something out of the ordinary for, for such a time as this. Keeep at it. The best is yet to come. 

April 9, 2020: 

This working from home phase. 

What even.  

This is like a normal day for me lol! 

The only difference is that this time its actually decreed by the government and governments around the world.  

How freaking cool that the world gets to observe things for the betterment of humanity - the greatest asset there is! 

Above all of the conspiracies and threats this global pandemic has posed on the world, we who place our hope in Jesus lack no good thing. 

What a time to be alive though! 

News are released every hour all around the world because of this pandemic and the numbers keep increasing.  

It doesnt look like its gonna get any better soon but my goodness Im choosing to rejoice at the gift of time that this has permitted so many individuals to reset, realign, rediscover things again.  

Im excited over the birthing of so many powerful creatives through this.  

I dont mean in any way undermine the many lives that HAVE been lost though. 

I believe humanity has it in them to create things beautifully out of these painful ashes.  

April 10th, 2020 

Source: http://www.birdsfallfromsky.com/ 

"With a resemblance to the plagues of ancient Egypt, incidences of insects and animals, including birds, falling from the sky cause uneasiness, because it may be a sign that something in nature is out of balance. Some believe that a higher power may influence the natural balance." 

April 23rd, 2020 

Idk why "that"season is STRONG on my heart tonight and a lot of days recently for the past few weeks leaving me in tears constantly. But I recall something that Beth Moore posted one time a couple of weeks back,: 

"My most meaningful season(s) came out of my meanest season."

And that resonated deep within my soul. Every thing happening in the world right now is how it was revealed then...

What a season to testify about. Its tooo much to cater with our own words and affection of adoration bc it was THAT good. It was fire! 

I know there's a tugging on most if not all of our hearts through these things the world is going through right now and the only answer is Jesus.  and by this I mean, He is the only one, the only truth we can count on in these unstable days. 

I can only pray that we navigate these interesting days well as beautifully as He purposed it.

Because it will be beautiful.  

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As for my April 5th entry, I realize after a couple of discussions that the heartache of the people "dying" really is spiritual death or eternal death.   If anything, these times have done it has really spoke volumes on the reality and brevity of life (and death).   All the enemy aims to make out of this global situation is rally people in to death basically.  Its one thing to die physically but to die spiritually too is eternal doom.  That's the real tragedy. 

There's just this massive killing going on in the spirit realm as the thief comes to steal, kill and destroy and the only way to counter it is through obedience, relating to God Himself in prayer and petition and TRUST. 

That last line might seem cliche I know, but Jesus is the ONLY way.  There are so many resources - teachings, sermons, churches, worship available online that we can have access to 24/7 literally to help us through. The world has the gospel in its hands as much as it has TikTok (lets be real), and so now unlike any other time in the history of mankind, the Lamb is coming for the reward of His suffering. Amen.