🌿 A P R I L 🌿

Something I initially thought should only be for some special women in my life, but thought I could share here as well.. 

To my ladies, 

The past three months has been a handful of heartfelt funerals. Funerals that should total to a whole year's worth of energies, emotions, life stories and oh finances - all in only three short months. Friends I haven't met in a long time, family I haven't spoken to and of in a long while, I got to hear from and experience in a few short weeks. No complaints here, only Wow and thankfulness for the journey it has been and for the rarely appreciated gift of social media for making things a little bit easier to handle. I think. 

Beautiful Misha got to tie the knot the other night and the way I contemplated attending this wedding, or any wedding or just anything "fun" for that matter, only God knows. I didnt know if I was ready for anything fun yet. Didn't know if it was morally right or whatever being that my Tata hasn't even been 50 nights yet. I said I'd just stay put and give best wishes. 

Long story short after much sass and overthinking, the sight of the ever beautiful bride that evening was so breathtaking, it blessed me right in the pit of my grieving soul. My goodness it was all so spectacular! I didn't know I needed that breath of fresh air of a beautiful bride marrying her love until I saw it dang it.  Love is fricking beautiful. And fun! 

I didnt realize how quickly I  resorted to a one sided definition of love through all the funerals the past three months that I forgot it (love) can still be fun. One sided in the sense that after my father all love reminded me of was pain. And on top of that its Lent period and THAT in itself is the biggest reminder of pain of all our sweet Jesus had to endure for us! Like geeeeezz. I was not having it. 

But Misha! My goodness Misha. I have never regretted attending a wedding so much. Ha. just because I was reminded of the fun aspect of love and I dont want to ever miss it regardless of circumstances while I'm here in the land of the living. God's so good and I am blessed I get to experience it with God - sent humans!  (even if its through social media). 

Something about love springing about hope, dang! (Hope to live in abundance NOT necessarily get married but go for it sis!) 

Cheers to Mish and her mister! Cheers to marriage man! Cheers to love! Cheers to all the upcoming weddings this year! Cheers to fresh beginings! 

Let's just all get married yeah? (for the gram of course! 🙄) 

but seriously guys getttt. on. iiiittt. 

Also, I might show up to your wedding whether you like it or not just so I can post about it and keep the hashtag MFQweddings trending, sooo dont say I didnt warn you. 

All of this to say, I might cry a ton still this week (50nights) but Im remembering I can still have fun too through it all. 

Immensely grateful for the journey knowing you mighty ladies has been for me.  

All my love, 

Dilz. 

[kere wedding maid of honor]