SUCH TIMES

"There is death in Gaza" I just read here on social media.  The point of that phrase being that while the Israeli community smile and celebrate their unjust government, there were people dying on the other side - unarmed and therefore treated unfairly.  Some say Israeli with guns and ammunition against sticks and rocks. Fair observation. But is it? I will be honest. It was shocking to see that when it came down to fact/truth and current affairs (not always the same thing unfortunately), we a people that thank God for our rugby wins defy this same God throwing shade at his people choosing to celebrate. If you really knew what this people had to endure in only seven decades ago, you would understand why they fight the way they do; why they've had to create the best and finest of of all finest ammunitions for themselves from NOTHING; why and how they built an empire and A- State-Of-The-Art economy... If you knew or saw how they were almost nothing, le...

Some historical events the world recognises: Israel's Independence day; Fiji's first coup - And by your own cousin I might add.   May 14th. Your birthday.  A year away from 70 today, Tata.  Wow. Before what people know you as - a spiritual mentor,  a work colleague, a retired civil servant, a leader,  a man of faith... I am blessed to know you first as my Tata. There has never been a time in my life where I questioned that. You carried all roles that you were assigned to - Vanua, Lotu, Matanitu while being our Tata - all with so much GRACE and discernment.  What an honour to witness it first hand. Everything about my life and encounters with God is inspired by your relationship with us as our father,  with me as my father. Vinaka na veisusu vinaka. However big, however small,  I'm grateful and proud of the life you both have built for us.  It doesn't look like a lot on the physi...

I don't know what may have been going on in your head on that day you said "I Do" but I know without a doubt you said it - if anything, with or without anyone else standing with you with it, I know you said it with faith.  At 26, much older than when you were when you got married,  I can imagine how scary that must have been for you.  I'm sorry I misjudged you.  I put this tag on you as a mother, as my mother, you should just know how to handle life because you are the 'mother' - not a human being, not a Sunday school teacher, not a lay preacher, just a mother.  Mothers just know. Mothers always know. True to a certain extent but I think in that,  I didn't see you mothers as human beings - people who hurt, and cry, and fail and sometimes (if not often) misunderstood or overlooked.  The sleepless nights not only on infant stages but throughout all our lives really, wherever we trod. Thank you for saying yes over and over and over and ov...

I look at my previous journals and she has left marks all over it. A year ago, I'd tell her, "Lewa no-no" and then give her a different piece of paper. Somehow she just liked the one where I wrote. I just glanced at my passport the other day and she left a signature there too.  Im glad i get to take it remembering that season of my life whereever I go.  She was leaving her mark. Its been a year since everything changed. Transiting in to the new season was hard.  Emotional bonding with a toddler isnt easy to just let go, let alone FORGET.  I dont even remember how I first came to look after her but we became super close/ attached within a very short span of time. Ever since we found out she was in her mother's womb, I knew I wanted to love this child.. almost everybody else didnt want to be associated with them... with her. That broke my heart. I remember praying with tears for her, "well Lord, use me.. keep her and use m...

Little testaments of His Faithfulness:  This week  money went missing from the records I look after. And a big amount at that! Peace reigns and I honestly had no idea where that money went to! Co-workers started murmuring and throwing pitiful glances at me. Just what I needed to go in to declaration mode: "No way God. Turn this around!"  The next day I was convinced I was getting the loss cut off off my pay and I was fine with it. "They can have their money, I'm just here to testify." I rested on the fact that whatever happens, being in Samoa in and off itself is a testament of heavenly goodness and this situation wasnt going to ruin that. Got woken up at 3ams to declare out loud, "Even in the odds, my God is for me and not against me. My God is for me and not against me. My God is FOR ME and NOT AGAINST ME.."  I really needed to stay connected. Did not want to get distracted by the murmurs and glances. And for me that meant plugging o...

Its my day off and i can finally watch Youtube videos. Just got done crying over this one. 💘 Please watch .   Before I spoke a word, You were singing over me You have been so, so good to me Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me You have been so, so kind to me O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me You have been so, so good to me When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me You have been so, so kind to me O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away O, the overwhelmin...