"Fia igu ki?"// KINDNESS

Thought I'd take a walk outside but its 12pm in Samoa and no one walks in this heat at this hour.

But I got up and after sending a text I thought I should at least, clean my room. Reorganized a few things and opened my curtains.

A knock on the door. The housekeeper. I managed a smile.

Her: "Fia  igu ki?" (Do you want a cup of tea?)

I really didn't have an appetite, but I replied, "I faamolemole" (yes please)

She hurried to make me one, handed me the cup with a smile of gratitude as if to say, "you're most welcome" while I tried not to scare her with crocodile tears.

I have a stubborn soul and it wasn't her job to fix me tea at any time of the day. But she did.

Her kindness broke down walls I struggled to put up the night before being up in my feels of disappointment and disapproval from people I work under.

Real life sucks. Its not out there on Instagram and Facebook etc, but its there. You get misunderstood. You get cussed at. You hear them talking about you in nasty ways. You hear them bringing up your past like it wasn't what got you here today. They make you feel inferior and unwanted, good for nothing.  Hopeless.

I was just there.

Don't fake it till you make it. That's hard. At least just make it. However and with whatever just make it. Take that walk outside or just have that cup of tea and you're making it.

You don't have to feel like you're conquering the world, at least just feel that you're paying attention to your soul.

One cup of tea at a time. One kind soul at a time. 

Sincerely,

Someone who's getting there.