God Knew How Much I Needed It // Na Te Faia Lei Ala 🌸

God knew how much I needed it. I needed to breathe. - Something fresh;  something new; something different.

Sometimes through a circumstance or a series of circumstances, bumps and bruises, falls and small wins, 

we reach a point. That point where we can't or at least don't want to go on any longer; or where choosing to live requires alot more effort or strength than the normal.

Feeling clogged, caged in, imprisoned of some sort. Imprisoned by my own ideas of life, developed perfectly in the process of my circumstances. Neatly too. So neat that I didn't even see it being way off track and even if I did, I didn't care. 

Pain does that. It eats on our souls and reminds us of all that's went south, unconsciously trying to keep us down.

I gave in, countlessly. Subconsciously in the midst of that state, I also remembered whispering to my troubled soul, "This is only temporary".

I reached the point. I reached the edge of the cliff where ending it was the only way. 

Even in knowing this God, I exclaimed, "If You really are God and I'm YOURS, You will take me out of here (this!).. Not for anything else but because You can! You don't have to but because You can, I want to see You do it again!"

Two Sundays later I was off to Samoa supposedly for two years but I chose to come back one month in (for completely separate reasons to what God took me there for).

How my heart, soul and mind was met in that short month's stay, is beyond me. He knew what my heart needed and provided accordingly there - the people, the atmosphere, the breathe of fresh laid back and lesser polutted Samoan air. It was good for my soul. It was refreshing to my mindset. Definitely necessary for my journey.

If I never believed in God, through that trip He met me and I am forever affected by His wonders all over again. He is my favorite forever! 

Nothing - No pain, no worry, no concern, no request is too little for Him to care nor to big for Him to not come through/ provide.

Because He can, He just might do it for yah. Like only He can. 💛 

Lalelei Samoa!
(Beautiful)