FOCUS on the Waves

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I sat there kind of regretting the whole idea of going there in the first place. 5cm away from where I was sitting and another 25cm after that was just SO MUCH rubbish.  I couldn’t even spot the sand on that Suva Point seashore.  Ideas and reasons of having that shoreline cleaned  up flooded my mind because at that moment it just seemed disgusting. Definitely not favourable for the public. Yet! The public was there. And so was Dilz, literally 5cm away from all that rubbish! Not only that, tide was coming in and the only place left to cover was the rubbish area. Hence the splash from the waves, I could feel on my face.

Starting to get mad at myself for deciding to sit without thinking, I heard the voice say, “FOCUS on the waves.” But Lord I came here to journal not watch the waves.  Besides the sea scares me at times. NOT a big fan. :/ “FOCUS on the waves.” Oh-kay. Sigh. 

So this is what I observed.  The force of the waves increases as it approaches the shoreline.  It draws back and comes forth forceful again. And again.  It draws back with not all of the rubbish, just some of it.  (or even less than that!)  And the smell.  As I wasn’t too far from the rubbish, I feared its smell would bother me.  Nope.  All I could smell was the sea. 

You should be laughing with me right now.  Yeah? So instead of journaling/ listing my concerns to God, my heart melts and bows at His feet saying,

Argh God. You’re so fun.
I am the messed up shoreline.
Dirty. Filthy. Full of broken stuff.

YOU. You are the ocean that waves its way through
As I let go only slowly, very slowly
You violently yet patiently pursue me
You don’t give up
You keep coming back

Like the sea your fragrance is overpowering
No filth is too big to consume the ocean
And Oh that’s YOU!
You are consuming
Your fragrance is overpowering
You fill me up all over
All I can do is surrender
My God I surrender

And in the end
The sea covers all the trash
Altogether it looks just fine
In the end You win
In the end You still rule
In the end You have Your way
In the end its all about You.

BEAUTIFUL
You are oh God. 

All my love,
DiLo. 


Psalms 29:3
"The voice of the Lord echoes above the sea.
The God of glory thunders.
The Lord thunders over the mighty sea" 

Comments

  1. UnknownOctober 19, 2013 at 4:11 AM

    awww amazing lesson.

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  2. DiLo RabukaNovember 8, 2023 at 3:24 PM

    Life Update: Oct 2023 I was at this same seashore line. It was getting too windy and I wanted to leave when I heard the voice say, "Look around you Dilz." Because all I remember were the times I came here broken and feeling like that was all life was going to be. I recall how I wrote this blog. Best believe I cried like a baby. Its been 10 years of healing and growing and letting go of things that I needed to heal from. It's been a rough emotional journey, But gosh its been a good one.

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