SUCH TIMES

Today was one where I actually took time out to look back through my journal. Haven't been doing it much for a while now which is almost saddening. I like to make it a habit to read through previous journal entries esp when life becomes a bit weary and I am slacking off if I haven't already dove in to ignorance.  Its a healthy habit bc I get to be reminded over again of His goodness esp in days where I don't feel it. And Honestly I dislike admitting that such days exist but they do! Oh my gosh they do! So I came across an entry that I felt like sharing here, because the reality is, there ARE days where holding on is the most insane idea because giving up or giving in, is so much easier. Thankfully and normally at the end of our end,(or so we think) is the light - perspective. This entry was one of those days... ______________________________________________ LOST! Didn't know what I was singing today Seemed like I was Trying to connect Don't know if it w...

I’ll never forget the trouble,  the utter lostness,  the taste of ashes,  the poison I’ve swallowed.  I remember it all—oh, how well I remember— the feeling of hitting the bottom.  But there’s one other thing I remember,  and remembering,  I keep a grip on hope:  God ’s loyal love couldn’t have run out,  his merciful love couldn’t have dried up.  They’re created new every morning.  How great your faithfulness!   I’m sticking with God (I say it over and over).  He’s all I’ve got left.  God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits,  to the woman who diligently seeks.  It’s a good thing to quietly hope,  quietly hope for help from God .  It’s a good thing when you’re young to stick it out through the hard times.  When life is heavy and hard to take,  go off by yourself.  Enter the silence.  Bow in prayer.  Don’t ask questions: Wait for hope ...

Been so much going on, draining me emotionally and spiritually - core situations Havent been the best judge of things Given in to opinions of me by deciding to create opinions of my own Actually voiced it in  a mail just so that they'd know, feel and feeeeel how much they crushed me Brought up every sin in their life that I once overlooked Made sure they knew how much I knew somewhat trying to justify my right-ness in all of the mess how much I cared how much I loved how much I invested how much I, I, I..... sick reasonings sort of trying to make myself feel better about all the good i was doing because it seemed like all they saw was bad bc all i heard was bad ignored the truth decided lies werent gonna go if i didnt voice my supposed actual when really the actual, actual said, "Not that way beloved." I was convinced He was wrong After all, I heard it all in the face! Because I looked away from His face No it doesnt right their ways but neither...

Steve Penny Prophecy for Fiji! PROPHECY BY STEVE PENNY AT CENTRAL CHRISTIAN CENTRE, Nausori, Fiji - Monday,3 November,1997 "This nation shall experience a cloud of the glory of God, the anointing coming down upon this nation like a thick cloud filled with rain , filled with great potential and it will come down and it will blanket all of the islands like a cloud and it won't come and just wash across and go, but it will settle and it will continue to fall ...the rain of God's presence will fall on this nation in a powerful way. And the reviving of the Spirit…literally within five years, this nation will be awash with a great Revival. One side to another, this nation will literally be under the blanket of a move of the Spirit of God like you've never seen before. Just about every denomination will be touched...only those that are very, very resistant will hold out against it, but whole denominations will be swept into this move of the Spirit. There'll be un...

Bless the Lord , O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Psalms 103:2 NKJV http://bible.com/114/psa.103.2.NKJV I recently learnt that worship includes remembering all of Gods goodness in my life. (Best advice EVER!) I like remembering/ recalling God moments in ! my life where Divine intervention was the only way I got through situations. I actually have a habit of running to old journals when I'm block headed sometimes and just feeling down. So I was pretty stoked to learn in a teaching that remembering His benefits shifts mindsets and aligns us right back to God! It's true! Remembering where or when He met you, takes you right back to meeting Him. Again! The well renowned psalmist of all time, King David, in his Psalms did this all the time! He constantly put it out there that His God did this and that and sort of indirectly declaring that His God CAN do it all over again!!! Sigh. And so for me, if I ever forget anything in this world, may I NEVER  ever forget His...

Debbie girl turns a year  older this week! Oh my heart! These little ones are growing up soooo fast! I feel like Debbie girl is the epitome of the women that were/are a part of McFarlane family. Her coming into existence forced each of us to decide whom to rely on - God or man.After much search for answers through the hurt and shock,and judgement and opinions, we all individually came through choosing God and community (in summary)  Crazy good season.. #FunGod Her being named Deborah is prophetic to me for each for us in the different fields Gods put us in. Calling us out to be mothers, to be intercessors, to bring about comfort and healing, to love and encourage and be a voice of God/ represent Him (in pageants😉) in the way we carry ourselves, in our speecch, in our friendship with God and each other. 😳 wow Love you so much Debbie girl. Trying not to shed a tear. Gots you in a special place in my heart! always... Yacas.