SUCH TIMES

Something I initially thought should only be for some special women in my life, but thought I could share here as well..  To my ladies,  The past three months has been a handful of heartfelt funerals. Funerals that should total to a whole year's worth of energies, emotions, life stories and oh finances - all in only three short months. Friends I haven't met in a long time, family I haven't spoken to and of in a long while, I got to hear from and experience in a few short weeks. No complaints here, only Wow and thankfulness for the journey it has been and for the rarely appreciated gift of social media for making things a little bit easier to handle. I think.  Beautiful Misha got to tie the knot the other night and the way I contemplated attending this wedding, or any wedding or just anything "fun" for that matter, only God knows. I didnt know if I was ready for anything fun yet. Didn't know if it was morally right or whatever being that my Tata ha...

It still aches I dont know if it will ever stop I dont know if I want it to stop (missing him I mean)  But I do prefer feeling it than ignoring it. Currently feeling it all today - as if it were happening all over again... As if it hasnt been a month already... As if I hadnt felt it all before that day. We dont know how much space one takes up in our hearts until we lose 'em. He sure took up a lot in mine.  So I took some time out to just sit and soak in God's goodness and faithfulness despite my overwhelmed with sadness heart. God is sweet. I was reminded that God is PRESENT though the waves and the world seem loud;  That as the waves come crashing in, so will healing, joy and goodness all around;  That memories of him bring healing instead of pain  That reminders of his counsel lead us closer than apart That the sound of his voice ring comfort and peace That stories of him strengthen us within. Because all things work togeth...