SUCH TIMES

I look at my previous journals and she has left marks all over it. A year ago, I'd tell her, "Lewa no-no" and then give her a different piece of paper. Somehow she just liked the one where I wrote. I just glanced at my passport the other day and she left a signature there too.  Im glad i get to take it remembering that season of my life whereever I go.  She was leaving her mark. Its been a year since everything changed. Transiting in to the new season was hard.  Emotional bonding with a toddler isnt easy to just let go, let alone FORGET.  I dont even remember how I first came to look after her but we became super close/ attached within a very short span of time. Ever since we found out she was in her mother's womb, I knew I wanted to love this child.. almost everybody else didnt want to be associated with them... with her. That broke my heart. I remember praying with tears for her, "well Lord, use me.. keep her and use m...

Little testaments of His Faithfulness:  This week  money went missing from the records I look after. And a big amount at that! Peace reigns and I honestly had no idea where that money went to! Co-workers started murmuring and throwing pitiful glances at me. Just what I needed to go in to declaration mode: "No way God. Turn this around!"  The next day I was convinced I was getting the loss cut off off my pay and I was fine with it. "They can have their money, I'm just here to testify." I rested on the fact that whatever happens, being in Samoa in and off itself is a testament of heavenly goodness and this situation wasnt going to ruin that. Got woken up at 3ams to declare out loud, "Even in the odds, my God is for me and not against me. My God is for me and not against me. My God is FOR ME and NOT AGAINST ME.."  I really needed to stay connected. Did not want to get distracted by the murmurs and glances. And for me that meant plugging o...