SUCH TIMES

Its my day off and i can finally watch Youtube videos. Just got done crying over this one. 💘 Please watch .   Before I spoke a word, You were singing over me You have been so, so good to me Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me You have been so, so kind to me O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me You have been so, so good to me When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me You have been so, so kind to me O, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God O, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away O, the overwhelmin...

" Hey you.  You're beautiful and amazing and I mean it.  Now, I know it seems like you're never heard It may seem like you're never noticed All the good you do All the tears you shed All the prayers you prayed.. It may seem like you're just another help But I see and I know. Its hard to be bashed around like a dough but I see so much more than you'll ever know. Cool thing about doughs is that they turn out so much more beautiful than what was initially sown  The harder the kneading of dough, the softer and nicer what we will behold.  So hang on in there my girl,  You in all of this heartache will survive. You will just be fine, As  long as you are mine." It was a year ago when i needed to hear that. So much heartache and it only got worse through the year. Mainly my own poor, full of fear choices and others. Settled in what i hoped would get better and smoother. But inevitably failed still. I needed help. And i kne...

" I know that you can do all things and that no purpose of yours can  be thwarted....  I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eyes sees you." Job 42: 2 & 5 To experience Christmas and New Years here in Samoa is beyond me. Over and over again I see You planned ahead. Going through what was a year of searching and questioning and falling, and crying, time and time and time again,  I see You planned ahead. That Sunday I wept and pleaded, "if I really am Yours, like really Yours; if You know and are listening like You always do; if You care like i claim to know that You do; if these songs of faith and boldness I sing are what Your Word says it to be; You dont have to do this BUT BECAUSE YOU CAN Lord, take me somewhere out of here, out of this." Here in Samoa I have had the beautiful blessing of a stranger turned sister named Faith. I reckon its such a God thing to have her named this to constantly remind me of fait...