SUCH TIMES

It's different when the headline is "RAGS TO RICHES" or "STRUGGLING TO SAILING". It's something else when you've had all that and then you just suddenly don't - the possessions that I thought I was identified with: my father's house, car, the latest of gadgets, the fanciest of meals and family outings and a wardrobe of the latest (not to mention unnecessary) taste of fashion. Growing up with everything within reach of my desires having plenty and more than enough all our lives, to a place of nothingness, hurt and confusion.  Getting stripped off, of everything your supposed reputation and "comfort" rested on.  The depth of the heart ache only God understands. We were judged, stabbed in the back, abused and mocked in the face (literally) like never before.  In the bitterness of all this we fought, we blamed each other, we punched walls with bitter tears, we cussed, we hated, we resorted to lusts of the flesh and emotions; prostitute...

I don't have all the answers but here's what I'm writing about today. You know how when you're high on emotions and you're just blinded from everything around you? Like you just really don't care if the sky is falling, as long as you and him/her are together.. nothing else matters and all you want to do is please him in any way you can. You just cant risk hurting him. You ALWAYS make time for them. You cant help but lighten up when they're around and where being away from them is THE saddest thing.ever. (yikes.) Being with them you feel free to be yourself: to love unconditionally and be loved; to try new things; to make new traditions; to beat the impossible; dream big and live to fulfill it - purpose driven.  That is exactly what it should be with Him. The only one who truly satisfies.  One step at a time, keep falling in love. And love. Love is effortless. Love is surrendering.  Love is commitment. Love is not turning away when things go wrong bu...