The Dilz Journey

Sometimes Sometimes its just good to be still To be quiet, to be away. Because in these moments you realize all the things that tests your patience sometimes, all the things that contradicts your values and the things  you are striving for sometimes, all the little things that aim to  open doors to frustration, confusion and anxiety... In these moments, all of these become MEANINGLESS. POINTLESS. POWERLESS. And everything that God is, unravels before you and keeps you in selah moments every second minute. Alas, worship at its finest..... Life at its best for me. Far beyond all the questions I may have All the ponderings of my heart All the unmet "needs" All the different situations that presents itself before me The LIFE undo's me And I am made whole Again and again. and again. and again. Instantly my spirit rises And before my King I present a song and dance Only He understands The world may never comprehend How much this love really has...

Recently the Lord placed in my heart the grandeur of raising children.  It dissected my soul and spirit and has me bawling for days.   A few weeks ago a 20 year old boy was buried after being found dead outside a night club in Suva. At 20 years of age this boy has been a member of street gangs, robbed homes for fun - no joke! (and 75% of the homes in his childhood neighborhood) and thus has been in and out of jail.... and only God knows what other crimes.   His death spoke volumes to my mother. All the stories told about him at his funeral were about him being mistreated and pushed aside, passed from one home to another and the likes.  My mom was one who branded him a criminal and didnt want my brothers to have anything to do with him. (Oh we're related and used to live 3 houses away from each other.)   The stories at the funeral ached my mother's heart in realizing the kind of believer she had been in his life. and not only her. 90% of believers out th...